What I feared is finally happening to me – the dreaded postpartum hair loss. (Dear God, make it stop!!)

Just when you think your body – and somewhat of your mind – is starting to return to normal 4 months after baby, one more confidence crushing thing swoops in and kills any hint of attractiveness you were starting to get back –postpartum hair loss. I tell ya; there’s nothing more attractive than a balding woman. NUUUUTHING.

For nearly a year I enjoyed fuller, thicker hair with many layers of body. Yes, I used the word “body” to describe my hair. This wasn’t always the case though. I used to have thick hair when I was younger, but then in my mid-twenties I became a bride-to-be on a self-improvement mission that included weight loss and clearing my complexion. So I dabbled in a little Accutane to clear up my skin and it worked like a charm – my skin never looked better. Problem is; 5 months after starting the Accutane program I realized I was losing my hair because of it. Yep, the doctor made sure I knew all the side effects of this treatment, including depression and possible suicide, but she NEVER told me my hair would fall out….and right before my wedding!!! That biyotch!

Ever since then, I’ve enjoyed thin, fine hair. No more layers of body – I have like one layer of hair. And because it’s naturally wavy, I can run a flat iron through it a million times, but the hair closest to my roots never gets perfectly straight. And the worst – my bangs split and look thin on my forehead, so I’m constantly batting at them. I’m making myself sound ridiculously attractive right now.

Needless to say; with hormones that stopped the hair dying phrase during pregnancy, I relished my thicker, healthier hair. It was glorious, and after a while, I begin to forget my thin hair days. I was a thick haired girl again…

Uh huh…not so fast, mama!

I can’t claim what was never truly mine. The hair dying phase is back on – with vengeance! It’s all; “Girlfriend, you think that wig is yours to keep?  Guess again suuuckahhh!!”

So I’m back to wavy roots and split bangs. After blow drying my hair, my shirt is covered in my sad little hair strands that are no longer connected to my head. Not to mention; my highlight is brassy and gray hairs are sprouting. I may have lost a good amount of baby weight (which I’ll update you on soon), but that can’t even lift my spirits in the midst of thin, ugly hair. A girl’s gotta have hair!  

I’ll go back to the question I always ask myself and every other mother I know – why do we women have to endure so many unpleasant things that go along with pregnancy and the postpartum days? Aside from our little bundles of joy, can’t we just have one positive outcome to child bearing that gives us a boost after pregnancy? Ok, fine….my skin is looking pretty clear these days (yay) but still, I can fix acne. I can’t make my hair grow back. Please don’t suggest Rogaine, because once you start taking that shit, you can’t ever stop! What else can I do to make it stop??

I’m getting a hair makeover this week and dying it a darker color. It’s not bringing the hair back, but maybe it’ll give me the boost I need to stop wallowing in self-pity!

Did your hair fall out postpartum? If so, did it ever come back?

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